Hey everybody! I'm still alive. I've been preoccupied by life, love (or something similar to it, maybe? Don't get too excited, there's not much to tell), work, and adventures.
First off... I miss everyone! If you're reading this: I miss your face; I miss your voice; I miss your hugs; I miss your smell; but most of all I just miss YOU. It's been long and I've tried my best to make my own little ohana. But the friends and family I left behind... I can't just create a new one. You're unique and amazing and for that, I thank you.
Secondly! Work sucks. But it's also awesome. I'm being pushed to my limits, being given more responsibility than I know what to do with, and finding my nitch. I complain (boy, howdy! DO I COMPLAIN!) but so does everyone else. I think, at some point, even those who love their jobs find something to complain about. It almost seems like human nature. So! Works good. Stressful but good. And they appreciate us so much that they're sending us to Aulani. "What's Aulani," you ask? It's the Disney resort on Oahu. My company is paying for our department to have a one-night stay. We get breakfast and lunch, parking validation, and can bring guests. And another awesome thing? They're paying us 5 hours of overtime to attend a training thingy. Yep. I love my company. Needless to say, pictures will follow.
I've been all over this island, guys. Except for Kailua and Kaneohe. I don't have much experience over there. But it's on my list. I might be moving to the east side once October rolls around. I'm still looking for roommates and apartments. But things are looking up on that front! I've also got a potential lead on a mode of my own transportation. So... we shall see how that pans out. I'll keep you posted. I've been mostly hanging out in Wailua and Mokuleia. I've got my favorite hike and my favorite beach. They're amazing and that's where my friends like to hang out, too. So it's all good.
This last weekend I went to my boss' wedding. I got dolled up (make up, hair, heels -- the works) and had myself a great time. When some of my other coworkers got to the wedding venue they had to do double takes. I wasn't wearing my glasses and my hair was curled. I got so many compliments on how lovely I was looking (I'm thinking I might make a thing of this, once a week. One of my friends was calling it "fancy Friday" and I kind of like the sound of that). I thought it was just something nice people say when they see you give extra effort. So when I got to work on Monday it was a bit baffling for me when people I hadn't spoken with at the wedding still came up to me and told me how nice I looked. Gorgeous and amazing were two of the more popular ones. I tell you this not because I'm bragging. I tell you this not because I'm vain. I tell you this not because I know i looked good. I tell you this because I felt so out of place and quite unlovable and even silly looking -- I always do when I have to dress up fancy. But to hear the words, to see the reactions, to read the responses on Facebook... these are from people who know me and care enough about me to take the time to compliment me. And for that I am eternally grateful. It helped pick me up when I was having a really low day. I had just gotten in a fight with a male via txt. He'd been making me feel unworthy, unlovable, unacceptable all week long. And that was a very hard thing to admit to myself. So the outpouring from people about my looks... it really, really, really was what I needed to hear. And now I'm crying again. So I'm just going to end my ramble right here, thanks.
Moving on! I think I want to be a tour guide. It's unclear if I want to work for a company or if I want to own my own business. But being able to make people's vacations memorable in such a magical place? Priceless. But a girl has to eat so I'll take a paycheck with that, thanks. I'll keep y'all posted on what I'm thinking and doing in the next few months. If I start my own business, it'll be quite an investment. Definitely something I'd need to get a loan for. So... we'll see!
I've been dating. And I hate it. It's so exhausting to meet new people! It's like having interviews every single time. And it can't be during the week because I'm exhausted after work and want to wake up refreshed. So... that takes up my Fridays and weekends. Busy am I. Still single, also, am I. The only guys I'm finding who I'm attracted to end up being in the military in one capacity or another. And the few that aren't... well... there's some stereotypes that are true. So. Yeah... it's rough. I'm almost ready to take a break and reclaim my weekends for me and only me. Go be a loner for a month or so. But I miss being surrounded by family and friends... so... choices. *sigh*
Hope everyone is doing well! I'm going to start back up with the 21 Day Fix tomorrow. Bring on September! I'll keep you updated with my foods and my workouts. Prepare for a lot of yumminess. And sweat. It gets hot here!
Aloha from Oahu,
LC
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